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Behind It All

She never told her love,
But let concealment, like a worm i'th' bud,
Feed on her damask cheek. She pined in thought,
And with a green and yellow melancholy
She sat like Patience on a monument,
Smiling at grief. Was not this love indeed?
(Shakespeare, Twelfth Night, 2.4.115-120)

Admirations

... that One God
... that person whom I've known for over a year but noticed only now
... that band that I hail and the one that makes me go dub-dub-dub
... that Canon EOS K2 Rebel
... those friends from back in the days
... those bitters
... those dreams
... those chinitotoys turned pinototoys
... those puppies owned by other people
... those pictures I've taken

Other Beauties

Anna Marie
Angel
April
Kor
Chona
Diana
Joane
Ian
Patricia Lauren
Maria Monica
Ruth Creole
Ruth Crayola
Nadine

...EXIBITIONS

  • June 2005
  • September 2005
  • October 2005
  • November 2005
  • January 2006
  • February 2006
  • March 2006
  • April 2006
  • July 2006
  • August 2006
  • September 2006
  • October 2006
  • November 2006
  • December 2006
  • February 2007
  • March 2007
  • May 2007
  • October 2007
  • February 2008

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    Friday, August 18, 2006


    I must admit that I am once again attracted to Cadavs - or should I say "BUMBUMBUM"?

    Okay, I apologize to all whom I've shown drama for over a couple of months especially during days when I tried to convince myself that I am completely over him. I used to tell everyone that I no longer love like Cads, but hell, the flame has burned again. But honestly, it isn't the same as before. Why?
    - Because before I never knew why I have loved that guy. I never knew what he had that made me fall head over heels for him. But now, unfortunately, I am physically attracted to him. And i hate being able to know why I like him now because it only shows that I am ONLY infatuated.

    Last Wednesday, I was lucky enough to be able to have the jackpot prize of being able to converse with Cads. Lucky me. Lucky I was alone - he only talks to me when I'm alone, I swear. HAHAHA so there I was, sitting alone in the gazebo, feeling a bit irate for having to wait for Petter and Nazee, when someone came walking towards my direction. I tried to look at him though he was in the dark. I recognized his silhouette and the sound he made while dragging his shoes. I felt it was him. The feeling was right so I tried to bow my head, attempting to ignore him. Fuuny, he called my name. I looked up and found him trying to talk to me while he continued to walk past me. He asked me what I was doing there and if I were alone. I told him I'm gonna do a photoshoot and that I weren't alone, though that was a lie. Then I wonder, what if I told him I was alone? Would he keep me company? Wait. Wondering bites.

    A while ago, I was given a second shot. I again had the chance to see and talk to him up close. But I won't be narrating. It's still fresh. He might discover. I might be ashamed to show my face. Wtf? Wht's the use? I think he already knows. HAHAH yea I think he's already aware of this infatuation. Many agrees. So i nod.

    "... before I never cared, infatuation's never there but now it's killing me, I really hate myself ..."

    Then again...