<body> Solitary
Behind It All

She never told her love,
But let concealment, like a worm i'th' bud,
Feed on her damask cheek. She pined in thought,
And with a green and yellow melancholy
She sat like Patience on a monument,
Smiling at grief. Was not this love indeed?
(Shakespeare, Twelfth Night, 2.4.115-120)

Admirations

... that One God
... that person whom I've known for over a year but noticed only now
... that band that I hail and the one that makes me go dub-dub-dub
... that Canon EOS K2 Rebel
... those friends from back in the days
... those bitters
... those dreams
... those chinitotoys turned pinototoys
... those puppies owned by other people
... those pictures I've taken

Other Beauties

Anna Marie
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Kor
Chona
Diana
Joane
Ian
Patricia Lauren
Maria Monica
Ruth Creole
Ruth Crayola
Nadine

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    by ice angel



    Brushes- 1| 2

    Tuesday, October 18, 2005


    Host: Saan ang dream vacation mo?
    Girl Contestant: Amangpulo.
    Host: What was the very first gift that you gave to your girlfriend?
    Male Contestant: Uhmm... taptoy.
    Host: What taptoy?
    Male Contestant: Taptoy na teddy bird.
    Host: What's your ideal age for marriage?
    Girl: Uhmm... I am not sure...
    Host: Hindi... Kunwari ikaw, more or less...?
    Girl: Uhmm... more.(crowd booing...)Sige, Sige... Less, less....
    Host: If you had a foreigner friend, where will you bring him toshowcase the beauty of the Philippines?
    Girl Contestant: Bocaue.
    Host: Bocaue...? Why Bocaue?
    Girl: Because it's a magnificent place.
    Host: Which part of Bocaue?
    Girl: The Bocaue Rice Terraces. (Banawe kaya 'yon!)
    Host: Who's your favorite author?
    Contestant: Danielle Steele.Host: Why Danielle Steele?
    Contestant: Because... because Danielle Steele, I like best. Thank you.
    Host: How would you like me to address you?
    Contestant: My address is Project 8, Quezon City.
    Host: What is your best feature?
    Contestant: My graduation feature.
    Host: So tell us, why did you join this contest?
    Contestant: Me? Join this contest? Why did I... That's all. Thank you!
    Host: What do you want to be after you graduate?
    Contestant: I want to be a successful Medicine.
    Host: Hindi ito boob... hindi ito tube... Pero tinatawag itongboobtube. Ano ito?
    Contestant: BRA!
    Host: What would you like to say to foreigners?
    Contestant: Please come back.
    Host: What is your typical day?
    Contestant: I think Saturday po!

    (Gay Contest)
    Host: Ano ang advantage mo sa ibang contestant?
    Gay Contestant: I think and believe na bilang isang bading...(longpause)...Ano nga po ulit yung question?
    Host: Which part of your body is your best asset?
    Contestant: (believe it or not she answered) ...Si Melanie Marquez po!
    Host: What is your favorite motto?
    Contestant: (after a long pause) I don't have a motto eh.(so the crowd starts helping her out. the crowd started saying, "Time is gold! Time is gold!"). I have na po. Chinese gold!
    Host: If you were to describe the color blue to a blind person, howwould you do it?
    Contestant: That's a very good question. Keep it up. (then the girlturns and walks away.)
    Host: Who is your favorite fictional character?
    Girl: JOSE RIZAL! (crowd starts laughing.)
    Host: Who is your favorite hero then?Girl: Hulk Hogan.
    Host: If you were to become a superhero, what would your power be?
    Girl Contestant: Uhmm... bumble bee!
    Host: What is your edge over the other contestants?
    Girl Contestant: My edge is 23 years old.
    Host: What, in your opinion, is the ideal age for marriage?
    Girl: Between 24 and 25!
    Host: How do you see yourself 10 years from now?
    Girl: I'll be 28.
    Host: Describe your special someone in three words.
    Girl: Kahit nga po 1 word, kaya ko.
    Host: Ok, sige...
    Girl: In one word... MY LIFE!
    Host: If you were given any special power, what would it be?
    Girl: Power of Attorney!
    Host: So you like reading, who's your favorite author?
    Girl: Uhmm, Shakespeare.
    Host: What works of Shakespeare?
    Girl: Hindi ko po alam eh.
    Host: But he's your favorite...?
    Girl: Eh... kasi patay na sya eh.
    Host: What is the biggest problem facing the youth today?
    Girl: Drugs.
    Host: Why?
    Girl: Mahal eh!
    Host: Hey, I heard you almost didn't make it, how did you get here? Didyou ride or did you walk?
    Gay Contestant: Of course, did you ride. What do you think of me, didyou walk?


    Hoeshoot I really laughed my ass off here!!! TAena sabaw utak ko netoh in all fairness. HAHAHA nice way to forget about all the work done during the previous sem.

    Sige dewd tawa pa...

    Then again...

    Saturday, October 15, 2005


    Twas our last day of the finals week. At long last, its'all done. I've waited too long for this.. Yeaaaahhh!!!! Start of sembreak. Gimiks here I come!!!!!

    Anyway, as I said, it's our last day plus itwas Pat's early treat for her Bday tomorrow. There, now I tell you what had happened... I begin..
    We were singing our throats out cuz we were all having fun singing. Then we ate.. Waw heaven ung food. Eh we were so damn hungry pa naman kanina we couldn't resist the food. Ayun todo LAMON - that's the right word, I tell you. Then we decided to have a FEW drinks. Agnes chose vodka for a start and added Jose cuervo tequilla next. We all had maybe more than 5 shots each. Damn was it great? IT WAS!!!

    I just had 5 shots of tequilla. Not bad for a start. It's my first time, really. HAHA and the first time has been good and one hell of an experience. Hell alright. Gumuhit ung init lupet! Pero would you believe? Wla kong tama! Hahaha di mn lang pansin ng Mom ko. Oh yeah.

    Taena si Pat laseng. C wendyl sumuka and grounded. Si Kaypee bangag. Si Agnes.. Expert! Hahaha drinking guru na yan! Yebah.. Ang mga bruha naglaseng!!! HoOoOo.. You gays are great. I had fun!!!!!! Happy Birthday PAtly. KISS!!!!

    Then again...

    Thursday, October 13, 2005


    It's difficult to have allergic rhinitis especially on a very fine day.. (oh so foine, nyak! Haha anu nanaman pinagsasabi ko..)

    Waaw. It's only 10am and I'm already here seated in front of my life.. I mean, the ever reliable pc. Unfortunately, I'm not at home. Wednesday should have been my last day but what the fck my agony has been extended. Hanggang Saturday pa ang pagdurusa. MAIOHMAI.. Nakakataba ang pagpupuyat, I'm telling you. Haha ang weird ko. Still in school. Damn.

    Ang aking love doctor na si CheeChee ay walang kasing hayop!! Hahaha ampness nakakabanas toh, ung mga pics nia sa friendster, sinama pati ung mga merong kalokohan ko. Nakakahiya. Many may view her page. Many may learn of my silliness. Hahaha maeexpose akoo. ASA!

    Hoping mode muna ko. Pero wag nga muna sigurong magexpect ng isang magandang mangyayari for this day. it's still too early right now. Baka tonight is the night, BWAHAHA what the fck!! ASAness!!

    Then again...



    Then again...

    Wednesday, October 12, 2005


    I must be the most stupid girl.. Poor me..

    Tanginang sheeet!!! (I can get used to this, haha I wonder, sino nga ba ulit nagpauso nito? It's funny because it has already been a part of our daily chaka wordings.) Okay. Now to the serious part. The Drama Queen now narrates...

    Twas this fine Monday morning, first day of the Finals week. I was not that prepared for our Philo exams, but I still managed to scan my notes before the test. Kaypee asked me if I could go with her and see if Mr.Cunanan was in his office. Ok, I said, Let's go. I left my notes and went on. As i opened the door and half of my body already outside, I was shocked to see him fixing stuff inside his locker. "What a surprise! I knew this was going to happen!" I said. So on we went til we walked right infront of him and waited for the elevator to open infront of us. When he was quite done with his whatever, he glanced at me. Automatically, I said "pfsst!". Yuck ang cheap naman, anu? wala, un agad lumabas saken eh. There. That psst was a bit late. Dinaanan na nia ko nung sinabi ko yun. Wow, so slow. Loading. Simple scenarios already make me smile, but this one doesn't. It really bothered me that time. Nilapitan ko tuloy sina Andrea, Che at Annama. Yes, ganung kaitnding effect ang ginawa saken. Hindi lang naman dahil dun na naisnab aku or something, HELOO BABAW NUN! Basta may something kasi na I dont wanna type in here, for he might b able to stumble upon this site. Edi nabuking!

    Oh what joy! I was inside the elevator with him and.. beside him. :((
    Stupid me. Ewan. Siguro na-shy lang ako sa kanya so I didn't even bother to say "HI!" or whatever. Tanga ko daw sabi Che! Hindi ah. Kala ko di nia ko papansinin e, that's why ginantihan ko. Tinalikuran ko siya. Aarggh!!! Sabay pag labas sermon nanaman mula kay Che. Che is my personal love doctor - for free! Haha :P labyu Cheechee. Pakiss!! Might wanna do me a favor.. HAHAHA! I'm kidding! So un. Sabi ni Che nga antanga2 ko (aw!) may sinabi pala si __ sa kin pero di ko daw pinansin. OH NOOOO!!! Foolish. May sinabi daw sakin pero di ko man lang pinansin kaya sa ibang tao nalang daw sinabi ni __. Owyeah. See how my stoned heart works?

    I remember laughing at Pat's mistakes during her blooming Highschool years. I kept on tesing her before.. Sablay!! Reyna ka nga ng sablay! Anu ka ba naman?! Sinayang mo! Parang karma ata. It's my turn. :((

    And this someone.. Kelan ka ba magbabago? Nagsasawa na kami sa ugali mo!!! Earth to you!! WAKE UP for crying out loud!!!

    Then again...

    Saturday, October 08, 2005


    Alalahanin konga ang aking pagkabata.

    Buong buhay ko, sa St.Paul na ako lumaki. 4 years old ako nun, tinanong ako ng lola ko, "gusto mo na ba m,ag-aral?", sumagot ako,"pag 5 years old na po ako, five!" sabay taas ng isang kamay na pinapakita ung 5. After a year, yes pinasok ko kasama ni Mama (lola ko) ang Preschool building.. Ooh tahimik. Ayun nagenroll ako shempre. Anu pa ba silbi ng pagpunta ko dun diba?

    Kinder 1. Carrot ang ID ko dito na may picture ko pa. Maliit ako at palagi nasa harap pag class picture o pila. Ang kyut ko. HAHAHA asa!! ang titser ko kamukha ni Alice Dixon at kilala niya si Momi,. HAHA
    Kinder 2. Doggy ang id ko. BAdtrip nga ko nun dahil green ung sa name ko, eh gusto ko pink. Di naman ako makaangal nun. I am but a small voice. Whaha dito ko pala naranasang magtumbling sa sahig dahil tinulak ako nung nursery na lalake, naghahabulan kasi kami, e may platform pala, ayun! Blag!! Aray bukol. Anu na kaya kinahinatnan nung lalakeng un ngayon? Tapos pinuntahan nila ako kasama ung teacher nila, kapit-kamay parang kala mo kung ano. Dito din ung nagbatuhan ng ABC Blocks ung mga kaklase ko vs. Kinder 1 boys. HAHA riot oh, batuhan! Dinamay pa ko, napunta tuloy kami sa office. Crush ata ko nung isa kasi tinuturo ako at ung hita ko, bata-bata chansing na! HAha pero basta innocent pa ko nun.
    Grade 1. Uuy gradeschool na. Ang service ko dito isang green kay Mang Toti at cream kay Mang ewan basta! Ansya ng stroller ko parang pati katawan ko gumugulong. HAhaha BAdtrip tawag saken ng adviser ko, GEORGELENE. Whatdapak? Ipaghalo ba?!? It's Georgina Helene, Miss. Or if you like, Georgina is fine and better than Georgelene. Pero dito ko unang maging Chairman ng committee, dito din ako nagkamit ng madaming award! Girl genius! HAHA
    Grade 2. Gusto ni Sab ang shoes ko. Dahil Spiritual Committee Chairman ako, ang vice ko ay papalit-palit. Kung sino lang na ma-feel kong maging vice, HAHA labo! Balakang 2000 si Mrs. Gay de Villa.
    Grade 3. Naging cheerdancer ako. Aw! Haha yeah
    Grade 4. Kabarkado ang "BRAINY" bunch. Hahaha masya dahil may pamilya pa kaming nalalaman at dito ako ang bunsong may kakambal. Ako si Sweety Paddy at si Natts si Honey Paddy. Angkyut! Cheerdancer paren ang lola.
    Grade 5. Ayoko ng mga wire sa Computer Lab. Ayoko nung static. Napagalitan tuloy ako. The horror!!!! Ang harot! HAHA inagawan ko daw ng bestfirend si Joan? E helow bestfriend kona kaya si Angeline dati pa. Aysus Ba!
    Grade 6. Dito ko naging kabarkada ang mga mahahalay na bata at puro kalokohan. Syet! Ito ang ugat. HAHAHA andito din si Sister Vee, sabi niya, "Kung walang transformation, suri na lang!" sabay may hand movements pa un. Hahaha funny!!!!
    Grade 7. Uuui last year na, dalaga na ko, Hahaha ako ang sampaguita girl sa play namin ng Perhaps. Ayoko ng main role dahil mashadong seryoso, nagiiyakan. Di kaya ng powers ko. Kaya akin ang unang scene! Bida noh? Bida ng mga extra. HAHAHA muka kong pulubi nun. Gravacious. Mukan tanga ichura. ampowtah! TAs Ayun gradweyt nako! Minake-up-an ako ni Momy. Yihee dalaga na.. HAHAH di nako cheerdancer nang taon na ito. Awwmehhnn na-shy ang lola. DAlaga na ksi. WHAHA ampness

    Ansaya! Actually madami pang masayang nangyari, shempre memory gap. HAHAHA basta ayus! un na un.

    P.S (liham?HAHA) Simula kinder 2 ay naging matalik ko nang kaibigan si Natts. At hanggang ngayon, barkada pa rin kami. (pati ang mga momi namin, hahaha)

    Then again...



    6 days straight...

    What the f**k? 6 consecutive days akong pumapasok ng school. Grabeee.. Ambigat ng load na binibigay ng mga ulongks. Maigaspolgas. (Hahaha anu daw?) Sana lang tumaba ako kahit laging puyat. Sana ganun na lang noh? Kung madalas ka magpuyat, tataba ka! Pero shempre parang ang sagwa naman nun diba? Biglang taba after 6 days! HAHAH anu ba tong naiisip ko? Bangenge.

    Ansaya pala mag-sew. Gumagawa kasi kami ng tapestry sa NatSci subject namin. After years, nakapag-tahi ulit ako. Yea! Ansaya, pwede na daw mag-asawa. Haha dahil dun lang e noh. Mga kaibigan ko talaga, timangs magisip. (Oh no! Ika nga, birds of the same feather... Ayoko na ituloy. :)) Sana uno na un. Mahirap magtahi huh, natutusok ako palagi nung needle, duguan. HAHA tapos ansarap ipakita kay Che ung lumabas na dugo kasi nahihilo siya at nadidiri. Yea!!! Peace kay Chiri Mi. Baka di na ako ilibre ng Zagu nian at bka ibuking ako kay Cadaver. If this happens, patay! Wala, guho na mga pangarap ni Inday. Hahaha puro na ko kalokohan..

    Finals week na! Aruy ngarag na ngarag na ichura ko. Isa na akong butong naglalakad at yumayakap sa bitters. paKiss!! Hahaa seriously, parang bibigay na katawn ko. Nakakaubos ng dugo (Che dugooooo!!!!) pero parang aww kasi 2nd sem na sa November. Okai bilis naman. Parang kelan lang (achuchu reminisce?!?) neneng-nene pa ko. May gatas pa sa labi at tumatakbo nang nakapalda sa Saint Paul. Aw! HAHA kdirs.

    Oks na toh. Nature calls. HAHAHA

    Then again...

    Friday, October 07, 2005


    Bakit ganun? Lagi na lang akong sablay. Ako ba o ung pagkakataon?

    Dati, sa isang taong binibigay ko na kay Andrea. (Iyo na please, haha) ang insensitive ko that time. Di ko naisip na baka na-hurt ko siya. Sinabi pa talaga ni Annama at saka lang aku nauntog.

    Ngayon naman, dito sa taong sabi ni Che ay mahal ko daw. Sht mahal ko ba yun? Kung ako man, di ko masagot yun. Malay ko ba? Manhid ako eh. Asa.
    Lunes pa lang... gusto ko makita anu kaya nagbago sayo? Baka meron akong mapansin. Para di naman uli maging manhid. But nooo, I didn't see you that day. As in buong araw. Aray! Tae.
    Kanina... Alas! Nakita kita nang palabas ka ng building at kami ni Che ay papasok. yes, nasabi ko. Antaray nakita kita after 4 days! Saya ko na. Tiningnan kita pero di ka tumingin, nag-ayus ka pa ng buhok mo. (tanging gusto ko sayo, antaray! heheh joke lang) Naisip ko, baka umiiwas ka. Kaya, yumuko na lamang ako at gaya mo, umiwas ako. Masakit. Kasi biglang humirit si Che: "Anu ka ba ba't di mo pinansin?!?! Nakatingin kaya!!!!" Sh*t sablay!! MALAY KO BA? Sinong sablay? Baka ako ano?

    Minsan na nga lang kita makita, di pa kita nakausap. Di pa kita tiningnan. UMIWAS PA KO. I must be stupid. Yeah. I am, I guess.

    Naisip ko tuloy ung mga napansin ko... Sa tuwing mag-isa kong naglalakad, lumalapit ka at nagbibiro pa. Pero pag anjan sila, asan ka? Hayun umiiwas na. Bihirang tingin na lang. Kung hindi naman, nakatingin ka tas un na, or ngiti kang pangiwi. Aray naman. Badtrip bat ganun?

    Sht cadaver what's wrong?!

    Then again...

    Wednesday, October 05, 2005


    It's been 4 days since my last online session. Oh well, I have been very busy with school stuff these past few days. There were nights when I'd stay up too late and get at most 3hours of sleep, then get back to school again. Whew! Now I've got puffy bags under my eyes! Haha ugly.

    It's supposed to be my ONLY rest day today, but no! I had to come to school since we'd talk about matters concerning our finals for AdPrac. We have got to win this!!! Beat LION's class! (right Annama?!?) There,there. Basta ang sakit sa ulo, kulang sa tulog sobra!

    Finals na this coming week. Paguran, ngaragan.. Name it! Busy days and nights are coming. Right now,I can already feel it. Yeah. So tiring. Good Lord I'm still alive!!

    Then again...

    Saturday, October 01, 2005


    Today I write about the things that happened yesterday, for the site became available just now, I think.


    Yesterday was a day meant for our Recollection. Oh yes, another time to learn more and keep my faith,, a time to "recollect myself", as Father Chi said. Wendyl and a few decided not to attend, for reasons that I don't want to know. It's their own decision, it's just that, sayang din un. Anyway, the speaker was talking about mainly on love and the like - having boyfriends, wanting ex's back, and the feeling of being an n.b.s.b type. Darnation!! HAHA

    Of course, temptations are everywhere as well as distractions, since all Second Year students from CFAD were there - oh, not all, my mistake. We arrived a few minutes late, the heck what's new?! HAHA I didn't see cadboi there. Too bad, I said to myself. Never mind. After learning a song, with matching hand eklats - movements that is, I looked at the back part of the auditorium and to my surprise, he was there. Nice, I thought. Now that is what you call distraction. Stealing glances is now what you call answers to temptation. Haha so maybe cadboi IS a temptation that time. Funny.

    I wouldn't dare to write the exact details of what happened, for that person might be able to view this and have a clue on this- this madness. HAHA but I just feel good and happy because I was able to confess my sins and pour out all my bad feelings that I've kept, to someone I knew who stood as my line to God - a priest. It was really nice, cause He is a priest and, AhH, it's just better I guess, than to a guidance councilor. Haha no offense.

    Now I'm an angel. HAHAH well not really, of course. I'm still a sinner, I'm no saint yeah,yeah. (well maybe some time I will be, haha asa!!)

    Then again...